My life is a continuous stream with 1 end

I recently just realized...that my life is full of blessings...dear Allah I beg for forgiveness for not being grateful...

The title explains how I have to repeat a moment in life where I have to search for an identity...truthfully...I feel slightly hopeless..and lost for directions...when I am exposed to so many roads and paths to choose from...and I am tempted to choose and try different ways to live life...

Indeed,...if I choose the wrong path...I might end up living a wrong life...so now I decided not to listen to the voices which tell me to change...when sometimes we might change for the worse...

I still not fully recovered from the "leaving-school" syndrome...I really just can't...it's really different now...the greatest challenge back then compared to now is that...only now I had to learn to live on my own...

I still remember the moment last year when I asked my friend...if I can survive the outside world...it seems the answer would be an optimistic yes...but easier said then done...

I also decided to think my life as 1 road instead of different roads to choose from...because in the end...I know where I want to go already from the start...I know what needs to be done...the road now is entering a dark tunnel...but I know its the right path for me...even when I'm alone in this road...

Study has been on the bright side Alhamdulillah...its not the best result compared to the others...but still...I am grateful just as long I can continue my scholarship and get a job...

Salam...

What?...

Its an expression per se...I'm just confused...and worried at the same time..


What do I do now?...