Standpoint

Well...maybe at first...I thought how people think about us was of of least importance..but then again...what if it reflects our true self and shows us the face of reality?...

Even so...I guess that is why we need to filter and evaluate people's opinions...it is up to us to determine which response would be correct and what action should be taken to improve status-quo...to make the right choices and decisions, we must firstly equip ourselves with the basic values of between right and wrong...

temptations, temptations...our stance begin to sway...worshiping the meaningless...its not easy...but then what is...

I might irritate and annoy you....because I know I have nothing to lose...I would like you to know why...

I said I know why I am behaving this way...when I actually have no idea while I pretend to know everything...

Am I standing for what is right or am I just standing up for myself and only look after for my best interest?...


Will I let this one go unanswered?...

Its fine I guess if you have your own thoughts about me...I have my own thoughts about you as well...maybe in a different context..

You told me exactly what I should do...I just have to do my part then...

So...I'll just let this one slide...just like the rest...I'll pray the best for you...

Head Stuck in the Clouds

Quit fooling around~~...indeed....my future for pre-university is still ambiguous...I'm not sure where or when would I be going to college...Nevertheless, the comforting part is that it is confirmed that I will be doing A-levels...that is perhaps the only thing I can say to myself right now...Truth be told I'm a bit worried if anything goes wrong in mid way....InsyaAllah...whatever happens...I have to accept and deal with it headstrong...I have to be patient...

The fact that half a year was spent...emm...frivolously without knowing how much time I wasted and squandered...I founded myself with guilty conscience...there is no telling whether I can catch up in this newly found realm...I don't know what to expect...stakes will be at an all time high...trying to compete in a neck to neck environment...pretty nervous actually...

Definitely...if I want to survive and make it out alive at least through this education route....companionship is a prerequisite....I am...and always will miss my high school friends...knowing that they are no longer anywhere around me is very hard to swallow...still...I wonder if I can start anew with ease and fully enjoy myself there...

SO....currently worrying myself about things that might or might not exist....I am reflecting some admission forms for a few colleges...took a peek of what unimaginable atmosphere that I am going to spend my 18 months with...still trying to contact my sponsor, Securities Commission...the official letter is being prepared at the moment apparently...

My grandfather is sick...he got lung cancer at stage 3 already...he might not be able to live long as the doctor said it...he is very much one of my pillars of strength and a person I look up to too...hopefully he will be able to pass through this period without any difficulty and be placed amongst the good ones...get well soon I pray...

Alhamdulillah~Salam~