A lot has happened during 6 months after finishing school....even though sometimes the passing days grew less meaningful...truth be told I DID NOT spent the time allocated wisely...as I always continue to wonder and ponder what should I do next...until the inevitable brink of boredom...Alas, LIFE MUST GO ON...as people always say it...
As much as I wanted to travel back in time honestly...I just can't..I don't know if it is my nature to keep dwelling in the past...but good and bad times altogether were all too meaningful for me...it hurts to know time and time again that I had lost my diary back when I was in Form 2 and Form 3...which then somewhat demotivates me to write since then...so...consequently...nothing to look back at anymore...only those visions and flashbacks if I'm lucky enough...
I would start depicting my after school life by saying how much I whined about having nothing to do...Therefore, I started having all sorts of new ideas...if I'm not mistaken...the first thing that comes through my mind right after I returned home from school was to finish watching Boys over Flowers...so that totally took off...and ended around January....
Nothing left to do then...except for attending driving classes and courses....aside from that...now I learned to go outside and hang out...so that taught me a little bit of independence and freedom...
In February or so...I started to really miss friends...its either I'm going to them...or the other way around...I went to Perlis and PD to meet up and patch things up again...I went for Sport's day too...
In March...the anticipated SPM results was announced...it was quite a memorable experience...however...more and more challenges were coming...it was certainly not what I had bargained for...
April went hectic with interviews and applications for scholarships...I applied for many scholarships...and many turned me down as well...by this time...I might had finished a number of korean and japanese dramas....I also got bored of hanging out and doing same things again and again...but I have learned a lot about life at this point...I knew that things were never going to be the same again...same goes to people too...
With the arrival of May...the newly found life seems already assimilated...but memories with old cliques still remains...but will not be rekindled...a number of significant developments I can list down so far is...
1) I know how to skate...=)
2) Driving license...cyah!! =)
3) Train debate juniors for competition or participating in one...
4) Do a little bit of news update and research for economics
5) Going through multiple of interview sessions
6) Having a scholarship and a full colour award...=)
Alhamdulillah...it turned out well at this point...but life is like a roller coaster or a wheel...there is no guarantee that everything will be alright in the end...
I'm still sad that my juniors lost in PPM...I'm really sorry...I might get angry sometimes...but now..I can't bear seeing you guys suffer...I hope you guys can work your way up without me around...
I spent some time in school training the juniors...I wonder if I get the chance to feel closest as I can ever get to traveling back in time...of course...the reality told me that...somehow...those days are over...even if I try to simulate everything...its not the same...some things do elicit smiles like meeting with teachers that once taught me...many teachers are getting sick lately...meeting them during Teacher's day couldn't be more meaningful...that indicates how time will bring us to a whole new level...whether I like it or not...
So...Azzam...please get a grip...let me just say...its a relief to see all of us had their own ways now...I'm happy for all of of my batch members...
My dear future self....don't be surprised if I said the same things again...:/
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