Hoarder in me

As per title, hoarder is usually a term used to describe a person that has some sort of disorder to keep a lot of stuff with them...compulsive hoarding is a psychological state in which the person feels attached to objects...

I think I am too a compulsive hoarder...I feel that objects that belong to me are a part of me....and usually, objects can remind you of some forgotten past,memories,sentiments and sensations...

I notice that I'm not a person who can simply move on with life without having to reminisce things that have happened in the past...

Today, I had the urge to look back into my past...I still keep the boxes which contain my belongings in STAR...eventhough my parents insisted to throw it away or at least sort out the things which can still be used...I was still adamant to keep all of it...and today, I salvaged whatever that I can find that is important to me...

I find a lot of stuff,...some old test papers...English essays...name tags...and my iPod shuffle...

and it is still functional...my major source of entertainment is only this back in school (excluding cybercafes)...but only up to Form 4 because I lost the charger...and I instead listened to music using my phone later in Form 5...

Sentimental much...

RM1

The moment you met a really great person...and just left without saying goodbye...leaving something hanging without an ending...

Its just weird...the way we act like nothing ever happened...even till now...

Farewell...its been nice knowing you...if only I can say this to you directly...

Revolution

Hopeful. I had the spirit to come out strong this time...so the title describes what my plans for the near future...Well..actually..nothing much...because its the holidays that is...the outlook seemed..."bearish"...but there are things going on anyway...

1)Ice skating
2)Jog
3)Study of Singapore
4)Maths continuous exercise
5)Tutoring and coaching
6)Study for A2
7)You-tube-ing econs videos

So, I might be updating on the things I'll be doing during these 3 months....its 1 am...and I'm reading on Lee Kuan Yew...okay...goodnight...

The jerk

The biggest jerk I have ever known in my entire life is none other than me....I just realized it...but I just have to move on from this and accept the fact...at the same time improving myself...

I'm so sorry to the people affected by my unruly behaviour...only Allah knows how sorry I am...I try to correct myself in the future...

Sometimes at times like this I am blessed to have people who can tolerate me all this while...

Bittersweet

Ever did something that make you feel happy and sad at the same time...especially when you made a sacrifice and it is meant to be better for you...and watching the result of your own decision before your eyes...

Or still feel sorry even if you have done your best....I'm not saying its a problem...its just a very delicate and fine feeling that is difficult to describe...