The Meaning

Sometimes in the midst of all of these...I do feel tired mentally and physically or even spiritually...sometimes I feel so drained...focusing on only1 thing too much...but somehow I thought that without this 1 thing..it will affect my survival...

Thus, it puts me again to reflect the meaning of life...I do observe and compare other people's lives with mine...how they lead theirs and how I lead mine...somehow I thought my principles stays the same...I believe that how I lead my life now is fine...of course there are things that I dont have...but I guess that is the sacrifice and trade off that must and should be done...and I cant have it any other way....

When I look people do things just for the sake of it...for fun they say...when perhaps they are forgoing something very important...but I myself cant help but having my faith shaken a bit...should I do something differently...

But, when I rationalize it...the things I do know should made me feel happy...perhaps a bit indirectly...but that is how it is...

Perhaps if I am a bit more patient...I could see the light...I have to keep going...for me...

Lets work for a better future

Looking Upon A Treacherous Road, Looking Back A Bloody Trail

The title is somewhat long...but hold very fine intrinsic meanings...

I feel my time in Taylor's is too soon to end somehow...I am not prepared yet to face the more dangerous and challenging obstacles ahead...even now...I have trotted and my knees are faltering...I am desolated...

And yet another door has opened to of more of what I have been going through....The reality is it is far from complaining...but realizing a much greater commitment and load ahead....which cannot be avoided...or had in any other way...

Living on the edge is how it has been...Holding on was what it was...

Still thinking...not everything is as simple....not to be looked at simply....a trade-off is inevitable...making something out of nothing...desperation leads instead of motivation...


Is this the right path for me?...