1 Year Already

It has been a year already since PPM Finals...just a walk by memory lane now...haha...enjoy...=)



My awesome 5 year debate buddy...=) we've been through a lot...


Anxiety...XD Nice teaming up with you guys....Thaqif and Sabeh....




It was all like a dream...The best HK memory ever was this one for sure...in SMUJI...=)


HOPING FOR MORE DEBATE-TASTIC DAYS AHEAD...COMING UP...INTERCOLLEGE...WITH NONE OTHER THAN ASHMAN...cherrio...

Once and at a time

A beautiful sight it was...
Enjoying whatever we had...
Even when not all things we had were great...
some were irritating...but not hurtful...
some others are just good to remember...

One grateful evening...
watching people on that majestic field...
I took the time to make a mark on this day...
A day I will remember to this very moment...

I made a promise to my future self...
I will cherish this moment...and I swore to myself I will definitely miss it
Up to a point that I will eventually write it here...

So...after telling myself that...it is the very reason why I remembered it so well until now...
when others don't...
To tell how much I enjoyed...
Almost everything since I've been here...

That evening was nothing but typical...
and the typical ones are the best...
the sun...the trees...the people on the field with their daily routines before they had their last chance of doing so...

I stared above the orange sky...thinking this would be the end soon...
even when its still far down the road for others...
I smiled...

the time will come definitely...so I took an opportunity to preserve the moment...
feeling sad,grateful and happy at the same time...

The sun is setting now...I am heading back...
so is the others...
And that is the end of one typical evening...which I had preserve in my memory...

That is all there is...there isn't anymore...

The Glitch

As much I am upset about losing in the semi finals of the Taylor's Health Month debate...seeing Malaysia lost to Singapore in football is much more grieving...

I guess to me...I might just repeat a few continuous streaks of mistakes and failures...knowing myself...I can be a bit carried away with things...

But...yeah..I less fear failure lately...as consequences of failure have failed to bring me to a point that I shouldn't do anything about it...failure is failure...a total one?...fair enough....so what's going to happen next?...

Well, nothing much I can see from here as far as I am concern...so I am just going to do anything I can the best I can...regardless...

Just trying to self-comfort myself...in a realistic manner....=)

The Passing Moment

My grandfather passed away on the night of 18th July...a number of things I had told myself due to his absence...

I became more aware of the fact of life...and the things and thoughts of dying which had never or seldom crossed my mind..

I cannot imagine how it would feel or be....but I feel like preparing myself...

At least I was able to listen to his last words of wisdom a day before he perished unprecedentedly...

I would no longer see him in my house where he stays while he was sick...but most importantly...I would not see him at all...nor listen to his reminders pertaining to religion...there was a lot of good things which are no more...

but I will have to take this in the best way possible....I will try to be a better person...insyaAllah...

Deja Vu (Inversed)

Alhamdulillah...the thrills, the chills, the spills, and the electrifying jolts of excitement...as my beloved alma mater had won the PPM Finals...

Somehow or rather...I can even smile from ear-to-ear right now if I try to recall the jubilant moment...even though there was one time when I thought that particular moment was nearly impossible if not difficult...to occur to me...

Truth be told I am seemingly proud and happy for my alma mater...in whatever event it is...we will cheer from near and far...as long as the name "STAR" is being carried...

Indeed we want the best for the school...because we grew up there...learning about life...weighing heavily on friendship and togetherness...we love everything about the school...the teachers and the people there who give colours to our life...we are thankful and grateful...and we want the younger generation who shares the same fate as we did before, before we declaring ourselves old boys, to enjoy their time in STAR...as we did...or even better...

By just being here where I am now...from my standpoint no longer as the students...carries much gloominess...reminiscing about what was it like before...and what I had missed all the while back in those times...


It was a totally different scene for me compared to last year in PICC...eventhough people will directly relate it with my last year's encounter...I wouldn't have another breath of explain myself why we lost the finals...Nevertheless...no matter how people judge or interpret it about last year...at least a new set of fresh emotions came into play this year...I bask in their pride in lifting the trophy...yes...the person who failed...cheered on for those who succeeded...there is completely nothing wrong with that in my perspective...regardless of how others look at it...

Leaving PICC with a smile for me was quite unusual and rare....it makes me smile even more, thinking about the odds of it even happening....the first experience ever...thanks to those lads...

To the people I am affiliated with and in debt to...again I apologized...but lets just look into the future and I am sure good things will come InsyaAllah...

So...after the moment we all have been waiting for...shrieking in joy and all those stuffs...its time to hit back to where we were....college....yeah....I met a lot of people in PICC...teachers and friends definitely...old boys and old rivals in the debate clique...It was also an opportunity to catch up with batch mates who came to watch the finals along with me...it was an inspirational and memorable day indeed...thank you...Alhamdulillah...=)

Impression

Alhamdulillah is all I got to say for my first few days in college...and most probably for the next two years as well...it has been great...my fears and nightmares began to wane and fade...at least for now...

Maybe it is because of the nice people I have met along the way...still...I would have a long time to get to know them properly and have a deep connection with them...my room mates were pretty much friendly and really helpful...

Class kicked off okay I guess...the 4 subjects I am taking are Economics,Physics, Maths and Further Maths...of course including Malaysian Studies and an extra subject called thinking skills...the syllabus was tough and it will take time for me to get use to it...

Owh...the amenities here are awesome...cybercafes mushroomed everywhere...not to mention there are multiple hot spots for dining,leisure, and recreation which really caters to college students who are looking for the best college life experience...

I am hoping for the best...indeed there are difficulties and painful memories along the way...but I am trying my best...